You are officially one years old. And we wonder how it feels. We wonder, as we often do, what is going through your mind as you learn and grow and explore. You always seem so full of joy, a carefree joy that just bubbles up endlessly. We hope and pray that you never lose that child-like joy.
We remember that day you were born. And that first night, after all the visitors and nurses left and it was just you and us, all snuggled up close, barely fitting on that narrow hospital bed. We couldn’t stop watching you we were so completely entranced. We remember your little, movements and the way you would twist your neck and stretch out your legs. We can almost hear those sweet little coos, and your cry for food. And remember not being able to stop smelling the top of your head. You smelled so fresh, so sweet. There’s really nothing like it, it was surreal..
We remember those first nights were full of concern, we wanted to make sure we were doing things right. Although we didn’t get much sleep our hearts were so full of joy and wonder. But eventually, after getting home from the hospital, we settled into a routine and got more comfortable with handling you and knowing what you needed in the moment.
We remember moving you from your cradle to the crib. It wasn’t a hard choice, like it is for some parents. And it’s not that we were insensitive, but rather the exact opposite. You were so active that you were getting your tiny limbs stuck in between the cradle slats, and you would wake yourself up and cry out of frustration. The crib gave you more room to move and explore.
You never did like being swaddled. We swear all we’d have to do was blink and you’d have that blanket unwrapped, you’re arms out and reaching for whatever was nearby. You did, however, like being wrapped up and held close to my beating heart. There were hours upon hours when your Mama would simply hold you close in the Moby Wrap or the evenings where your Daddy would hold you for hours while your Mama caught up on sleep.
Slowly but surely time has passed by. There has never been a moment where we regretted you.Though there were definitely hard moments, by the grace of God we have found joy and beauty in it all.
As you grew and became more mobile we would often put you in a jumper. Oh, how you loved to bounce up and down to music. Though that said, you also were always content to just sit and observe the ongoing around you. You never rushed into things, but you were never shy of taking risks. One of our favorite things to do is simply watch you examine our world.
One of your favourite things to do in the bathtub was to crawl as fast as you could up the slope of the back of the tub and then slide back down into the water. It made us a little nervous, yes, but you had so much fun! Your smile went from ear to ear and that little giggle was a piece of heaven to our ears.
You so evidently enjoy life. And we hope and pray that no matter what happens it is always this way, as life is meant to be enjoyed and cherished. We earnestly pray that you too can find beauty in the ashes, that you will find and be the light in the darkness.
Never forget that you are loved beyond measure, and intrinsically valued. He has a plan and a purpose for you and He delights in you with loud singing. He has a plan and destiny over your life that is more exciting than you, or we could ever imagine. Though this world can be dark and scary, there is always Hope. We pray you are always able to see through the darkness and see the light.
We love you, dear son.
Mom and Dad